"I, Sister Maria Josefa of the Pierced Heart of Jesus, call upon Our Lady of Mount Carmel, Saint Father Joseph, all our holy Patrons and the Sisters here present to witness my Profession..." On July 2, 2016, after three years of living, praying, and working with our community throughout postulancy and novitiate, Sr. Maria Josefa professed the vows of poverty, chastity and obedience. A blessed day it is when one is wedded to the One who created her and desires to be with her for all eternity. The day was also the celebration of the 65th Jubilee of Sr. M. Andrea of the Holy Cross, as well as a time to commemorate 125 years of our congregation, which was started in Berlin, Germany in 1891. We must mention, too, that on the evening of July 1st, our postulants became Carmelite novices clothed in the habit taking the names Sr. Marya Perpetua and Sr. M. John Paul.
Smiles, laughter, crazy fun, Jesus in the Blessed Sacrament, beautiful meditations on our Lady and womanhood...what more could you ask for? This year's Carmelite Days (photos above) hosted in April for girls in 6th-11th grade were a great success. Believe it or not, it was the timeless classic Cinderella that provided a thought-provoking theme for the day and a platform from which the Sisters shared their reflections on our mother, Mary, and Jesus, our prince.
"The old traditional fairy story is the story of God and the world: the King's Son who comes dressed as a beggar to win a poor girl for his bride, putting off His crown and His royal robes and coming empty handed, in order that she may receive Him without fear and may love Him for Himself alone." - Caryll Houselander
“YES, Lord, I want you totally!...NO, don’t make me give that up!...YES, NO, I DON’T KNOW!” Sound familiar? Is the Lord tugging at your heart, but you can’t seem to figure out what part He’s tugging on? How does one discern her vocation well? Fr. Henry Purcell (pictured above) joined us as a guest speaker and confessor for our June vocation discernment retreat and spoke to the topic using the rules of discernment from St. Ignatius of Loyola as a springboard. The following lines are an attempt to share a few of his thoughts for those of you who weren't able to join us!
Maybe you’ve received the following pieces of advice: “Well, just pray about it.” “I guess your confessor can help you.” “Follow your desires.” Helpful, right? More like insufficient. We’re a species with a fallen nature, so our desires sometimes overlap each other if not outright contradict. And a confessor can’t really tell you your future based on a two-minute synopsis of this month’s sins. And praying about it, yes, that’s critical, but not always abundantly and immediately clear. So how do we discern? In addition to frequent prayer, the sacraments, living a moral life, and learning about religious congregations, it’s important to examine ourselves before the Lord.
Perhaps you feel very drawn to the consecrated life, but there’s something (or somethings) holding you back. What is it? Is it a false humility? You’re not holy enough? Well, if I may be so bold, forget yourself and become aware of how much He is in love with you as you are. Is it pressure from your family, friends, or the world around you? Saying yes to God will be the best thing you could ever do for those you love. Is it that you’re worried you’ll mess up? “My grace is sufficient for you.” (2 Cor 12:9) Are you questioning if you could really be happy in religious life? “Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” (Mt 6:33) God only gave the Israelites enough manna for each day, yet they never went hungry. He will always provide for you one day at a time.
There’s a lot for us to ponder before the Lord, but most of all, we need to always remember how much He loves us. He wants our eternal salvation more than we do. And that’s what a vocation is for: it’s a gift to lead us to Heaven. The gift is useless if we choose to just stand in the path. Hence, we need to eventually make and act on a decision. (After all, perpetual discernment is NOT a vocation!) On the other hand, imprudent/hasty discernment is like cutting through the Enchanted Forest of Doom because your blind guide thinks it’s a shortcut. The balance, of course, lies in the middle. We must patiently listen for the Holy Spirit, and then act upon His word when we hear it. We can trust that He will lead us to the right place at the right time.
Below our retreatants pose before the Holy Doors at our Cathedral Basilica in St. Louis...a little pilgrimage during our retreat!
"Father of Mercies" was the theme for our Lenten holiness retreat held March 4-6. Six young women joined us for a beautiful weekend which included an outstanding meditation from Fr. Anthony Gerber, priest of the Archdiocese of St. Louis, as well as talks from our Sr. Mary Elizabeth of the Divine Heart of Mercy. Read some of her reflections on God's merciful love...
One of the most profound truths I encounter every day is that of God’s great mercy. I am not a Sister because I knew I was holy enough to be one. I am a Sister because, although I am a miserable sinner, I am and have been a recipient of God’s great mercy, unworthy though I be. Encountering God’s mercy in the midst of our brokenness and sinfulness is never easy. Part of us wants to run away and hide, like the little child who fully knows he took and broke one of Daddy’s tools without permission! After all these years we are still like that little child! It all goes back to Adam and Eve in the garden, who also hid themselves from God. When I was younger, I used to think of God walking through the Garden of Eden, trying to find Adam and Eve in a booming, angry voice… “Where ARE you?!!” Maybe you did too! Let’s change the tone of voice for a moment…to that of a loving Father and a little child. There will be consequences, but ultimately there is the love between the Father and the son. Right in the midst of our sin, God simply wants to love us and allow us ask for forgiveness that He is already waiting to give. God asks us the very same question in the midst of our sin, with a longing ache in his Heart, “Where are you?” He calls out to us to ask us to come home to Him.
We just can’t stand showing God the weakest part of ourselves! When it comes to Confession, sometimes it still is difficult to admit our failures out loud. I have to smile, though, when I ponder this. At the same time we fear God’s mercy, we greatly desire it as well. How many of us haven’t felt the true peace and joy of the Holy Spirit after a good Confession? We LOVE being forgiven! We LOVE being free! We LOVE being…well, LOVED! It is as if God is looking on us when we hide away in our shame, like a loving Father, saying to us, “My Little One…Don’t you think I have already seen what you have done? You don’t ever have to hide from Me. Come to Me, come to Me quickly and receive mercy! I ache to pour it upon you that My very Sacred Heart is burning with the flames of merciful love!”
When we accept God’s mercy trustingly and willingly, we honor Jesus’ greatest act…His Passion, Death, and Resurrection. This was done for our sins to bring us home to heaven with Him one day. It was done for YOU and for ME. We give God glory when we simply accept His mercy without question or conditions. Even if He knows we will fail again and again, He just loves when we get up from our falls and run to Him like a little child. Be not afraid of the God who knows you already. Be not afraid of the merciful heart that asks you, “My child, will you let me just love you?” In this year of Mercy, let us say with full heart, Jesus I trust in You!